Late night ramblings

Just a quick post to get a few things out there. Yes I know it's late and I should be sleeping! The man is on shift and I have nothing better to do than stay up and interact with this darn computer!

Post op update:
I'm doing pretty good. Trying each day to get up And move around. It's harder than you would think. Some days I have a lot of energy but once I'm up and going my body says "slow your roll!" As I told the man yesterday, the pressure on the lady parts was reminiscent of twin babies pushing down. Ladies you know that feeling when you expect to see a little hand reach out your cooch and wave at you? Yep, that's it!

Alternately I feel like I should be wearing a tummy binder to hold the spot where my uterus once was. Why? I have no idea. It just feels comforting to hold my belly in, perhaps it's from having muscles cut and not being able to hold it in without some help. In any case I walked around Home Depot yesterday and got a lot of 'knowing' glances from other women who I am sure thought I had my hand on my lower abdomen because I was doing the "I'm pregnant and absent mindedly am rubbing my baby" hold and rub. I laughed when I realized it. And was grateful that's what they were thinking instead of thinking I was an absolute freak!

Diet update:
Or should I say lifestyle change? Or program? Look people, we can talk semantics all we want but any change in diet is a "diet". I know. I know. Negative connotations with using the term. But it is just that. I am attempting to change my diet. I am not however dieting! Or starving or depriving myself. I am doing things to make me feel better. A nod yes it takes some discipline. Especially when my new diet is not the same diet that my family is on.

In any case I started it again. And I feel good. Only a few days in and I can already tell the difference in my energy levels and mood.

I want to throw out there that if any of you have looked at the isagenix page and are remotely thinking about it, please call me. If I enroll you, it's a little less expensive. And speaking of expense- ask yourself this: how much do you spend on your breakfast and lunch each day? Or that latte? Each shake only cost about $3. That was the biggest selling point for me. I was already spending about $3-5 on breakfast and a latte. And then $5 at lunch. It made sense to me to do it.

Once I reach my goal weight:
Do I intend to stop? No. I will do maintenance. And will use the products a different way. They will become support tools rather than weight loss tools. I have been very impressed at the quality and taste of the protein shakes and also with the electrolyte drink. So I will definitely continue. They will replace other products that I have used in the past when I was exercising hard. In fact they have a whole line dedicated to athletic performance.

On the little dogs
Can I just say I,am still not sure they don't deserve to be sold to gypsies? They make me want to either take the lord's name in vain or start praying. Perhaps I should pray more as the cussing isn't helping anyone.

On my food porn addiction
It has gotten better. Have you noticed that I haven't really posted anything gluttoness in the past few days? I think I achieved maximum perusing levels. I am now onto home improvement magazines. The only frustrating part is I can't do a lot to make changes in my own home. Yet. But I am pinning ideas. And when I'm able you just watch out!

Which leads me to goals.
I'm starting to write those down too. For me. My children. My house. And my life in general. ( oh and the man too but don't tell him-- he's so stubborn and contrary he'll do the opposite just cause he can!)

Little baby steps. That's what this New Year is teaching me. Take little baby steps. And by the end of the year I hope to be flying!