Glad that's over!

I'm back!  Did you miss me?

I feel like I've come out of the bowels of hell.  I've been sick for a week with a head cold that included high fevers and headaches. 

But now I feel a lot better!  And of course the first day I'm out of the fever induced haze I am supposed to start Day 1 of my second Deep Cleanse.   Truthfully, I wasn't looking forward to it as much as you might think. 

I managed to keep to the regular shake day diet through my sickness.  I made sure I stuck to it even when I didn't even feel like eating.  I knew I needed to take something in and I might as well take in something full of nutrients, antioxidants and vitamins.   So I drank shakes and had a healthy dinner each night.  I did have to have a few cups of decaffeinated tea and an apple in those hazy days.  But those were the only "cheats" that I ended up using.   The tea was for the sore throat and just to hod something warm in my cold, cold hands.  The apple let me take the Motrin I needed for the high fever at night. (I didn't want it on an empty tummy.)

A note- I had no idea if Motrin would be acceptable to the whole cleanse thing, however  I needed to do what was right for me.  Which was to have my fevers under control.  103-104 F was waaaay too high to ignore.   This is something that everyone needs to remember about their individual diets.  You can have a plan but if it does not allow for some deviation, you will ultimately fail.  You cannot be rigid because then you set yourself up for the "all or nothing" pit that many fall into:  "O No! I ate XZY and it's not allowed on my diet so I should give up! I'm a failure!!"  

No.  No you're not.  You're just human.  You're a failure if you don't start again. 

I wanted to keep on track with the cleanse but had my fears that after a week of feeling  like total dog poo, I might feel worse if I went on only liquids today.

But guess what?    I feel good!  I kept to it and am almost done with day 1.   I've been feeling better and better as the day goes on actually!   

And no, I am not delirious from lack of food. 

I am still a little worried about doing tomorrow.  I won't lie to you.  It's not the missing food thing.  Believe it our not, I didn't want the dinner my family ate tonight.  But what I did miss was the communion of sitting down together.  (I don't like sitting at a dinner table if I am not eating.  Something that irked my parents when we were kids.)  I just couldn't bring myself to sit at the table while they ate. 

But I'll fill tomorrow up with little tasks and it will pass by just as quickly. Then I will be able to raise my arms in the air and say "I did it!!" And I will be done with deep cleansing for the month.   I will still continue on the rest of the month long cleanse and shake days just not so intense.

One day at a time.  That is all I can do. And for some inspiration, I measured myself!  I am at 189".  

That's 8.5 inches less than when I started this a week and 1/2 ago!  I'll take it!!